My mind is speeding through the thoughts
Which set off the emotions
Which climb up the steep hillside
Just as they reach the beautiful view
They lose their balance
Fall hard and fast



Guilt sets in

An emotion full of angst

Energy wasted worrying

from deep within

Others can’t see it, feel it, touch it

It is time consuming thoughts of negativity

Only within my control

Anxiety overtakes me

Like a foreign body a virus

Makes me feel sick my heart quick my breath shallow

Covered in sweat

I remember this feeling from before

And realize it is only I who can slam the door

Block its path to my inner core

I breathe deep and slow

Remember that place that brings a smile to my face

Relax the tidal wave of fear

Remember the good and those that are dear

Another deep breath watch it all disappear



Here I am day twenty-one
Stuck again, nothing within
So where do I begin?
I will start here with this pen
Write a word watch it unfold
Then I will try on more
And look deep within my core
Where I have been many times before
It is within these walls the best words float
Through long halls of pictures old and new
Memories I think they are called
Colored in so many hues
A vast gallery so fine so delicate
The renderings quickly disappear
With merely the slightest move
Quietly I tiptoe through
My mind silent careful not to touch what’s there
I stay for a short moment look around
Then decide to visit again tomorrow


The innocence of youth
So lovely to watch
Playing together carefree, unscathed
Eyes sparkling, mouths singing smiles
Laughter, the sound I hear
Running through the grass no fear
Moving so quickly it’s like they disappear
Into the cool spring air
Talking about everything this and that
Within a language all their own
Makes me remember a time so long ago


Well hello sun

So glad to see you today

It’s been awhile wouldn’t you say?

Wasn’t sure you were going to return

To grace us with your burn, your colorful overlay

Feel free to make yourself at home

And stay for a day or two at least

Would hate to see you go too soon

I’m not too proud to say

I need you in my life

You help me deal with the daily strife

Oh by the way I can feel you coming closer

Today your heat gives you away

I like you best this way 

I don’t want to scare you

So that is all I will say

But do stay and play at least for the day

Thank you Sun




Chilled to the bone today

Can’t decide what might be the cause

Could be the vacationing spring

Could be the bombs planted, ticking away

Could be the tragic blast not far to the south

Could be me searching to make sense of it all

A coldness has enveloped many this week

So I know I am not alone when I say

Stick together, be thankful for yours

And the warmth will spread over

Like a fine blanket warming me again


I walked with my shadow today

Not unlike any other day

But there was a change

Neither good nor bad just different

We talked about the past again

Not my favorite subject

But I did not object

I accepted what was the cause

I admitted doing wrong

It wasn’t long after that

I began to see the truth in all this

My shadow still walking by my side

I began to feel a new calm

A sense that I finally belong

Here now in this moment today

We continued to walk in silence 

And it was then that I knew how it was

I would continue on


It is a dream

Though it seems so real

I get to go there several times a year

The water as clear as I can see

A cool turquoise bright as the sunniest day

Always warm my skin has a bronze glow

I ride around in a boat nothing fancy of course

This place is laid back, low key

People are all very friendly

At every stop someone new

Hey I know you, your here too?

Each visit a little different

But the tone remains unscathed

I always think of living here

This place has become so dear

it calms me as I skim the water from place to place

Tiny islands I think, white sand under my feet

I belong here it feels like home

Though I have never really been here 

Look at the beautiful dolphins gliding by

The giant fish galore

Happy to see me again just like before

Maybe I will name them when I visit again

Hopefully tonight

I must go now my time here has come to an end

Lucky for me I know i get to come back over and over again

APRIL 15 2013

What a day it has been

Again horrific news

What was supposed to a monumental cause for celebration

Many friends to take part

Has instead ended in my broken heart

Who would make this choice

So deliberate so vengeful

Causing such chaos such hurt

Why not choose to use your voice

To communicate your hate

I don’t try to understand your demand

I don’t give a care about you fearful cause

My friends are safe that I know

Many are not though

As for you, you heartless soul

May your fate be damned