WELCOME BACK


Well hello sun

So glad to see you today

It’s been awhile wouldn’t you say?

Wasn’t sure you were going to return

To grace us with your burn, your colorful overlay

Feel free to make yourself at home

And stay for a day or two at least

Would hate to see you go too soon

I’m not too proud to say

I need you in my life

You help me deal with the daily strife

Oh by the way I can feel you coming closer

Today your heat gives you away

I like you best this way 

I don’t want to scare you

So that is all I will say

But do stay and play at least for the day

Thank you Sun

 

 

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CHILLS


Chilled to the bone today

Can’t decide what might be the cause

Could be the vacationing spring

Could be the bombs planted, ticking away

Could be the tragic blast not far to the south

Could be me searching to make sense of it all

A coldness has enveloped many this week

So I know I am not alone when I say

Stick together, be thankful for yours

And the warmth will spread over

Like a fine blanket warming me again

SHADOW AND I


I walked with my shadow today

Not unlike any other day

But there was a change

Neither good nor bad just different

We talked about the past again

Not my favorite subject

But I did not object

I accepted what was the cause

I admitted doing wrong

It wasn’t long after that

I began to see the truth in all this

My shadow still walking by my side

I began to feel a new calm

A sense that I finally belong

Here now in this moment today

We continued to walk in silence 

And it was then that I knew how it was

I would continue on

RE-OCCURRING BLISS


It is a dream

Though it seems so real

I get to go there several times a year

The water as clear as I can see

A cool turquoise bright as the sunniest day

Always warm my skin has a bronze glow

I ride around in a boat nothing fancy of course

This place is laid back, low key

People are all very friendly

At every stop someone new

Hey I know you, your here too?

Each visit a little different

But the tone remains unscathed

I always think of living here

This place has become so dear

it calms me as I skim the water from place to place

Tiny islands I think, white sand under my feet

I belong here it feels like home

Though I have never really been here 

Look at the beautiful dolphins gliding by

The giant fish galore

Happy to see me again just like before

Maybe I will name them when I visit again

Hopefully tonight

I must go now my time here has come to an end

Lucky for me I know i get to come back over and over again

APRIL 15 2013


What a day it has been

Again horrific news

What was supposed to a monumental cause for celebration

Many friends to take part

Has instead ended in my broken heart

Who would make this choice

So deliberate so vengeful

Causing such chaos such hurt

Why not choose to use your voice

To communicate your hate

I don’t try to understand your demand

I don’t give a care about you fearful cause

My friends are safe that I know

Many are not though

As for you, you heartless soul

May your fate be damned

AFTER 6 MILES


I sink in a chair

Sweat entwined through my hair

My skin bare to the sun’s touch

Relaxing taking in the dizzying noise still running through my head

Breathing normal again- smooth and slow

Legs heavy not wanting to go 

To the day’s next destination

Just sit for a little more

Take in the glow of where I have been

Then be within the moment at hand

Close my eyes picture the sand on a beach a boat on the horizon

Breath deep, relax calming the beat of my heart

The breeze dries my hair as I continue to

Sink in my chair

IDEA-LESS


Day thirteen and I am in between

Struggling with finding the right words to say

Not lost so much as blank- no thoughts come to mind

At least not the kind that would

Sing sweetly together. floating on paper like a bird’s feather

Whether good or bad happy or sad

It is my choice what words to put together

So I choose to stick with this and continue to think

So I can ink another tomorrow

WORK ME CRAZY


I look around and see nothing but the suffocating pieces of my day ahead

So much to do I wish I had stayed in bed

So overwhelming where do I start

This pile of tasks is running together into one large mass within my head, inseparable

There is no pulling it apart 

I wish I would have stayed in bed

I am starting to see red as the growth grows too big to stay within my head

I hope I don’t start spewing my thoughts out loud

How unproductive, none would be proud

OK enough said

Better get out of my head

Get to work!

 

4 MILES


Start slow…Relax

Feel the breeze caress my face

Arms and legs fumbling towards perfect synchronization

Breathing grows heavier

Clear my mind and look around

As the clouded sky grows dark to night

Look ahead see the trail wind back and forth

Steady my breath…relax

My thoughts flow through but never stay

Focus on the trees enveloping my view

Faster now almost gliding

Breathing softens, pace steadies

Let the colors flow through my mind

Yellow, black, green and red

Take the place of the thoughts of today

I like this place it feels safe happy

As my feet continue in perfect sync 

Softly tapping the pavement not making a sound

Move faster now sweat beading on my brow…Relax

Enjoy the ride

I feel good, I feel alive

 

 

 

 

 

PART 2 NARCISSISTIC MONEY HUNGRY PSYCHOPATHIC WHORE


Really? Is that what you believe?

It’s just not true

To everyone but you

So smooth and easy on the outside

But look inside and see what I know

Bet you would run, screaming in utter horror

As I did long ago

Manipulation, greed and lies are your friends of choice

a gang-like presence leaving utter desolation in your wake

Oh what the hell you will never know

As you are blind to those who see through you

Those who don’t will surely grow

Escaping your tangled web of deceit, understanding your wrath, the damage done, the un-mended cause

While you sit there alone unchanged, no remorse